Birthday Breakfast prepared by Bonny when I turned 45

Most of my birthdays celebrated with Bonny have been precious and wonderful. Though he is no longer on earth to celebrate my birthday today, I felt very loved with many blessings and wishes from loved ones--family and friends. As I read through my journal, I was surprised to find what I wrote in my journal on my 45th birthday (I think it was the only birthday I recorded in my journal): "My 45th birthday began with a wonderful, love-filled breakfast prepared by my beloved one & only one of his kind husband, Bonny-Wilfred Gilfillan Khalil.
It was a small steak, potato chips, sausage, ham, brocolli, carrot, tomato and cucumber. Also a side dish of 3 layers of love: minced beef, mashed potatoes and chopped carrot and water chestnut topped with scrambled egg white. The set came with a glass of apple juice. It was a wonderful breakfast filled with love, joy, peace and blessings from above."
He was so proud of his creative breakfast especially the side-dish that he insisted that a picture was taken of his set of "love-breakfast" for the queen and that the queen must take a picture with it too.
Yes, that was six year ago, but the memory and the love from this beloved husband of mine still lives in my heart.

Remembering My Beloved Bonny on our 15th Anniversary

Today marks the 15th Anniversary of my union with my beloved Bonny. Though we are apart, this is still a special day for me. I thank the Lord for these years of enriching and blessing my life with this special gift in the person of such a wonderful man.
A week ago, Bonny's mobile calendar gave out a notification alert which I believe he set up in 2004 with yearly notification set a week before Dec 16 of every year reminding him of our anniversary. The reminder reads "9th Anniversary, Botanic Garden, 0900-1200." Since we have our car in 2003, we had been going to Botanic Garden and had our breakfast at the cafeteria at the Visitors' Centre on our anniversary. This morning, despite a heavy traffic jam, I managed to make it there.
I ordered a western set, the one that Bonny always ordered, and enjoying my breakfasting remembering how he taught me to eat a western breakfast in an English-Scottish way (at least that was what he claimed as the proper way to eat English breakfast).
He would take his time to cut his toast, fried egg, bacon and sausage into bite-size and then stacked them up like a mini-sandwish with his fork and knife before putting them into his mouth with his fork and enjoyed chewing it with such gusto. Then he would repeat the whole procedure untill his plate is empty:-). He has taught me well. I finished everything on my plate and givethanks to God for blessing me with such rich expereince with such rich man.

Bonny's Boris knows how to cheer me up

It was a challenge for me to enter December without Bonny being around. The weather on the 30th Nov and the first few days of December did not help much as rainy days brought vivid memories of Bonny's warm smiles and hugs. After a day of sadness on Dec 1st, I woke up the next morning to see Boris started to eat properly and swim cheerfully. He kind of knew that I needed some cheering up and began to eat and swim after two months of sickness. This is one of the many reminders that I am so loved :-)

Though missing Bonny very much and can hardly believe that he has left for 10 months now, my soul takes courage, comfort and joy knowing he is enjoying the Lord's presence in the heavenly dwelling where every moment is Christmas. It is not a time for me to dwell on what I have not but to give thanks for what I have. It is a time for me to live out the legacy of love and generousity left behind by my beloved husband, the one and only Bonny.