The Lord is Near...

I went for my silent retreat at Blue Mountain Kelong at Riau Islands at the end of April 2016.  It was the same place that I went at the end of July 2010, five months after Bonny departed for Heaven.  It was a good time of reflection for me and reflecting on my grieving journey.  The sea was still as  blue as six years ago and the place was still the same except for some improvements made to the facility.  The pain of not having Bonny around was still there though less intense.  As I surrendered all to the Lord, He displayed two rainbows as a affirmation of my decision.  The Lord was very close to me and wanted me to enjoy His presence and find peace and purpose while I continued to remain here on earth.

Remembering Bonny on His Earthly Birthday, 19 March

Today is Bonny’s birthday.  I went for trekking in the morning and could not help but kept looking up to the sky.  As I walked observing the clouds and the blue sky , I remembered my beloved and thanked God for those joyful times spent with him.  It has been six years that I did not celebrate his birthday.  It may not be that important to him now, but sometimes I do wish I had had planned a surprise birthday party for him.  He would have been delighted.

It has been Six Long Years...

Remembering and missing my Bonny today...!

Remembering Bonny on our anniversary (16 Dec) from Israel

Spent some time at the Mount of Temptation where tradition believed Jesus spent 40 days praying and fasting when he was then tempted by the Devil.

Took a picture of Bonny's wedding watch given by me on the top of the mountain.  Then took picture of it with a carved shepherd and among some praying hands.

Remembering Bonny on Our Anniversay (16 Dec) from Israel

Visiting ancient Jericho where the walls came tumbling down when God's armies marched around it with praises!  Bonny would love to be here with me if he were still on this earth for he was such a warrior!  Nevertheless, I remember him on this day and glad to have his wedding watch with me.

Psalm 16

Remembering Bonny as I meditate on Psalm 16.  I remember one of the promises that gave Bonny the confidence to approach and ask me to his girlfriend in early 1995 was from this Psalm.  Psalm 16: 5-6 "O Lord, You are the portion of my inheritance and my cup; You maintain my lot.  The lines have fallen on me in pleasant places; Yes, I have a good inheritance."  I am not sure that is how one should interpret these verses, but at that time Bonny claimed that the Lord had spoken to him when he prayed for the Lord's assurance that I would not reject him but would marry him.  I believe it was his confidence in the Lord, in His word and in himself that won me over to accept and finally I married him. Missing him and his confident self in the Lord! 

2015 Love Singapore Season of Prayer

This July marks the 21st Season of Prayer started by Love Singapore Movement.  This season is 50 days  in keeping with Singapore's Golden Jubilee.  This was often a season that Bonny looked forward to and be energized.  I could never keep up with his zeal to be an intercessor and often wish that he was around to spur me on in my prayer life.  However, now is not a time to wish but a time to enter into intercession as a desire and a call from God. 

Pictures and objects of praying hands in his study room should be enough as constant reminders of the importance of connecting with God in prayers.