Finally I got to hold Taj Mahal with my fingers too!

As I remember the day we got married 18 years ago, I continue to count it an amazing blessing to have known and married Bonny.  He had brought such love and joy in my life.  I am not sure how we would have celebrated our anniversary or where we would have travelled to if he was still around, perhaps we would have gone to India. 

Though I was unable to visit Taj Mahal with Bonny, I finally got there too and took a picture just like him but deliberately on the other side of the Taj Mahal.  This was one of my to-do-list in my healing journey of life without Bonny.

Bonny at Taj Mahal, India

Bonny had been to India many times after we got married but I didn't have a chance to go with him and visit Taj Mahal with him.  The last time I went to India was a church mission trip in 1994 before we got married.  Bonny was in the team too and the then Senior Pastor was trying hard to match make us:-)

As I prepare myself to go for our church India Mission Trip at the end of this month and I will be visiting Taj Mahal.  Besides ministering to the community, my trip to India this time will be done in remembrance of my beloved Bonny.

Praying Hands

I remember how Bonny used to get excited whenever July and August approached because it was time for the 40-Day Prayer started by Love Singapore Movement 17 years ago. It has been three and a half years now since Bonny left, I miss the sound of his prayers in the house and I miss travelling with him early in the morning for the early morning prayer meetings.
In remembering of him, I took time to read through some of his prayer journals and see his collection of praying hands.  Here is one of his collections which I believe he bought from the States.  
 A few months ago, I saw this praying hands displayed in the thrift shop at HighPoint.  It looked so familiar that I believed it was the one that Bonny bought from the States.  When I asked where it came from, I was told that it was donated by HighPoint as it was found in the Chapel during its renovation.  Immediately, I knew it belonged to Bonny and that he must have left it there.  So I bought it back and placed it on Bonny’s antique desk.   I felt like I have found a lost treasure!

Remembering Bonny and His Mum

Bonny’s mum was called home to be with the Lord 14 years ago.  Bonny joined her 11 years later.  Today, I take time to remember both of them—two beautiful persons with so much kindness and mercy.  I believe Bonny’s tender heart came from his mum, an amazing woman!

Bonny wearing a Texas Cowboy Hat, 1996

I went to the Utah, US, for astudy trip from 13 to 23 April and I was reminded of my US trip with Bonny in 1996.  A year after we got married, we travelled to Texas with our then Senior Pastor visiting churches and sharing our work in Singapore. 

After I returned from my April trip, I looked through some of the pictures we took in our 1996 trip to Texas, US.  Here is a picture of Bonny with a cowboy hat that he borrowed from our host.  He was so amazed by the number of boots our host had that he had to take a picture of it.  It was so much fun to have him around!  He will always be missed and cherished!

 

Remembering Bonny at Tracey's Wedding on 23 March 2013

The Khalil's family gathered to celebrate Tracey Khalil's, our niece, wedding on 23rd March.  The dinner was at The Sentosa Resort and Spa and the dress code was formal. 
I worn the gown I bough so many years ago.  Bonny was with me when we bough it as we were to attend a Valentine dinner organized by the church.  I can't remember exactly what year that was, it could be 1998.  At the dinner, we prayed together and renewed our marriage vows to one another.  It was a blessed time.

In Honour of Bonny on His Earthly Birthday

A few months ago, I planned to summit Mt Kinabalu today, 19 March, Bonny’s birthday. I wanted to do it in honour and remembrance of Bonny. However, there was no permit available on 19 March but permit was available on 5 March, three years and one month anniversary of the day Bonny left his earthly life to enter his eternal glorious home.
So, though I do not summit Mt Kinabalu today, I am presenting my certificate of my summit in honour and remembrance of Bonny, my dearest husband and friend who had been a strong encouragement, support and inspiration for me to achieve more and to scale higher ground than I could imagine.

The whole experience of reaching the summit was a divine message from God.  The original team of 4 of us was reduced to only 2 as the other two friends could not go due to physical injuries.  I started the climb with a climbing partner till Laban Rata where she experienced altitude mountain sickness.  I had to continue my summit climb by myself with the help of the guide.  As I reflected on this experience, it was a message from God to me that though I might have to continue the journey alone, I would reach the top with Him as my guide.  There will be or may be times that I have to travel alone in this journey of life, I am assured by the Lord that I am and will never be alone in this journey as He will forever be my guide!

Today I worn Bonny's sport watch to reach the summit of Mt. Kinabalu!

This morning I reached the Summit of Mt. Kinabalu at about 5.36 am. I wanted to take a picture of Bonny's sport watch that I was wearing but the place was so narrow, crowded n dark that I was unable to do so. So on the way down from the summit of 4,095 m, I stopped at the 3,554 m Sayat-Sayat Check Point to rest n I took a picture of this special watch!

It was a wondeful moment to be able to remembering Bonny on top of the highest mountain in Southeast Asia with the clouds below my feet!

Bonny last saw me this afternoon three years ago...

Three years ago in this very afternoon, Bonny last opened his eyes to see me before I left that ICU room.  He must had been assured by the Lord that I would be well taken care of before he accepted Jesus’ invitation to go to his eternal resting home in Heaven.

Today, as I take time to remember and think about Heaven, the quote from Bede Jerrett, “To rest in God eternally is the supreme joy of Heaven. Indeed, Heaven has no meaning but that”, brings much comfort to me.  As I take time to go through some albums and cards, I thank my God for those memories as He heals my soul and wipe away my tears.
What an amazing man that God has blessed me!  I can’t agree more with the note that came with the wreath from LoveSingapore Team three years ago that says “We celebrate the Amazing Life of Wilfred, a man of child-like faith, joyful hope and compassionate love, whose story of personal transformation and quiet confidence in the Lord is an inspiration to us all!”

I continue to remember and honour him as a man with a simple and pure heart, a man filled with love, a man full of fun and humor, and a man with a mighty warring intercessory spirit!

Enjoying snow with Bonny ten years ago at Mt Fuji

In December 2012, I went with my brother, my sister and her family to Hokkaido, Japan, for a snow vacation.  We had a lot fun with the snow and tried skiing.  The snow sceneries reminded me so much of my winter holiday with Bonny to Switzerland in 2005.  But the experience of playing with the snow with Bonny was on Mt Fuji, Japan, on 28 March 2002.  The winter scarf and sweater that I wore in this picture taken with him on Mt Fuji are still my regular winter wear whenever I travel in winter.  I wonder if there is snow in heavenJ.